EXHAUSTED BUT STILL GOING…
That phrase could sum up my life, quite easily. Living with the chronic effects of M.E., I am always tired, often exhausted, in fact. But life goes on, and so must I. And there is much to get out of life and enjoy, even with the limitations my health condition enforces. I love my family, my church, my home life, and, of course, my writing. I also love the vision God has put on my heart to build a community of encouragement for writers who want to write for His Kingdom. *
STILL IN PURSUIT
I was reading in the book of Judges today, about Gideon and his 300 strong warrior band of God selected men. They had won a great victory but God hadn’t finished His dealings with Israel’s enemies and told them to pursue the stragglers.
Judges 8 verse 4 says this:
When Gideon came to the Jordan, he and the three hundred men who were with him crossed over, exhausted but still in pursuit. NKJV
Here is the same verse from The Passion Translation,
Totally exhausted, Gideon and his three hundred crossed the river Jordan and continued to pursue the enemy
The Hebrew word translated exhausted means just that, ‘faint, weary, parched, famished‘. At the end of your physical endurance. Yet still those warriors kept going, because God still had work for them to do.
KEEP GOING UNTIL YOU DROP?
I wanted to pause and think on that.
Is God actually asking us to push ourselves to the place of exhaustion in His work? We hear too many stories of church ministers and missionaries working themselves to the point of burnout and collapse. I really don’t believe that is God’s heart for any of us. Those called to full time Christian work, those called to pursue Christ’s victory in every day life, those who have been given a vision to spearhead a work for Him, a calling to follow. He doesn’t want any of us to fail! To fall exhausted in a heap. But He does want us to keep going, even when it is hard.
WE ARE NOT ALONE
So what does that look like? I had to ask God that question, feeling particularly disappointed about another battle I was finding myself fighting from the place of exhaustion.
The key is Him. If we believe we are at the centre of His will for us, even when it feels tough, when it feels like a fight, then we are not alone in the battle. We have those He has placed around us – our own 300 – those who walk with us, pray for us, encourage us, and help share the burden. But most importantly we have Him. He is in command, He is our strength, He is our victory.
Gideon and his 300 won extra-ordinary victories, over enemies that vastly outnumbered them. It was nothing to do with how good at fighting they were. God found Gideon hiding in a winepress, lacking courage and confidence, and yet He still used him to set a nation free from oppression. It was all God’s power. It was all Him.
So when I feel exhausted and weary, that is good. Because in my weakness is His strength.
WEAK PROUDLY
As I am writing this a song has come on from my playlist that sums this up perfectly – Jillian Edwards’ ‘Weak, Proudly’. Do go have a listen. It is at the end of myself that I realise my need of Him. His strength is made perfect in my weakness. In our insecurities about ourselves and our ability to keep going, is the reassurance that we don’t have to – without Him covering us and making up for our insufficiencies. We can be proud that we know our weaknesses!
JUST KEEP GOING
Twice, in his New Testament letters, Paul writes these words to the early church, a people struggling under persecution and hardship,
…let us not grow weary while doing good Galatians 6:9
… do not grow weary in doing good 2 Thessalonians 3:13
Don’t give up. When it feels exhausting make sure you aren’t on your own. Make sure you have people around you to help and encourage you. But most important make sure that you are walking close to God, leaning into Him, giving Him your weaknesses in exchange for His strength. He will not walk with you on a path He has not given you to walk. That will become unbearable and unsustainable. But if you know He has asked you to pursue something, if you feel His hand on it, and know it is a victory that He wants to give you. Then keep going! And find your rest in Him.
*for more information on Kingdom Story Writers follow the link www.kingdomstorywriters.com
Joy Margetts is a published author and blogger. Her books are works of Christian Historical fiction. Set in medieval Wales against the backdrop of Cistercian abbey life, they tell stories of faith, hope and God’s redemptive power. Her debut novel ‘The Healing‘ was published by Instant Apostle on 19 March 2021.
‘The Pilgrim‘, her second full length novel, was published by Instant Apostle on 22 July 2022, and her third novel, ‘The Bride‘, published on 20th October 2023. Her first non-fiction book, an Advent Devotional, ‘Christ Illuminated‘ was published in September 2023.
More information on Joy, and her books can be found here