We have just been blessed with a few days of holiday in a very picturesque part of England. An old stone cottage in the centre of a beautiful Cotswold town was our base. And close by the winding, wilder stretches of the majestic River Thames meandered by.
I love water. I am always drawn to it. Which is why I probably live by the sea. So whilst we were there I was determined to see the River. Perhaps even to walk beside it, or sit somewhere to enjoy the wildlife, the colourful cruising canal boats, or the fascinating locks and weirs.
Physically Exhausted
There was a problem, however. A bout of Covid, followed by an intense time running a Writers Retreat, and a resulting exacerbation of my Chronic Fatigue, meant that I was just physically exhausted. So whilst I could enjoy the river views from a moving car, any attempts to get closer to it were thwarted by my incapacity.
On a particular rare sunny afternoon, we decided to try and visit an impressive weir and lock keepers house, noting that it had a nearby car park. We found the car park and we found the path down to the river. It was probably no more than 600 yards between the two, but after I had walked less than a third of the way down that path, I knew my body had reached its limit. Frustrating beyond belief. I stood leaning on a gate as my husband trotted down the path to see if I could get any closer – close enough to perhaps at least see the weir from a distance. But he came back shaking his head. Our plans had been thwarted.
But still blessed
In the car as we drove away we talked about some of the things that my Chronic Fatigue has robbed us of experiencing together over the last 11 or so years. Conversations like that aren’t always helpful. It can soon pull me down, pull both of us down. He too has had to sacrifice much because of my health. And we try not to dwell on the negatives. We are so blessed in so many ways – at least we could drive through stunning countryside and enjoy the Cotswold villages, at least we could visit a quaint delicatessen and buy some edible treats. But walking was just not happening.
God speaks
I was talking to God about this. About my frustration at not being able to do all that I wanted to be able to do. Asking yet again if this was ever going to get better, if we will ever get to live life more fully. These were His words to me,
‘Beloved, the path you are walking with Me is far more important than any physical path. And the views that will open up for you, the things that you will experience with me are much more than you can even imagine.
Child, lean into Me. Trust Me. I will prove Myself faithful. This walk with Me, beloved, this walk is the important one. And if through Your weakness you have come closer to Me, so that you have to hold tightly on to Me as we walk this path together, then that is enough.
I will not leave You behind. You will not miss out. Wait and see all that I have for You.’
Walking the path with Him
I knew then, and I know now, that the path that I have been forced to walk, a path of suffering if you like (although I struggle to call it that, because it has been so blessed), has been so precious.
The things that walking this path with Him have opened up for Me, the things I have learned and experienced, the lives that He has enabled me to touch and encourage. My writing. This writing. New friends, followers, book readers, other writers, and a vision to encourage and promote those writing for Him. All these have come about because of the path God and I are walking together. And the exciting thing is that He promises yet more. More exciting experiences, more open, panoramic views.
And yes, I will be able to walk more physical paths too. For this tiredness, this exhaustion, this too will pass. He that has promised is faithful.
And He wants to walk your path with You too.
You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11 NKJV
Joy Margetts is a published author and blogger. Her books are works of Christian Historical fiction. Set in medieval Wales against the backdrop of Cistercian abbey life, they tell stories of faith, hope and God’s redemptive power. Her debut novel ‘The Healing‘ was published by Instant Apostle on 19 March 2021.
‘The Pilgrim‘, her second full length novel, was published by Instant Apostle on 22 July 2022, and her third novel, ‘The Bride‘, published on 20th October 2023. Her first non-fiction book, an Advent Devotional, ‘Christ Illuminated‘ was published in September 2023.
More information on Joy, and her books can be found here
